Friday, October 30, 2009

6 weeks

So this morning I was reading my email updates that I get every Friday now when I become another week more preggo. I am 6 weeks today. I like reading about what size the baby is now. Well today I was told the baby is the size of a lentil bean! A BEAN! Wasn't this baby a poppy seed just the other day? LOL They grow so quickly! Another website said the baby is the size of a sweet pea. Awwwww! I think a sweet pea is the same size as a bean anyway. Sweet pea sounds sweeter to me. But bean is fun too. LOL

So far so good. I am tired a lot. I have my good days and I have my days where I don't wanna roll out of bed for anything. I was feeling a little queasy before. But when I woke up yesterday morning to get Bryan off to school I learned just what real morning sickness can feel like. I have been sick as a dog or just over 24 hours now. It is off and on but the queasy is always on. I almost puked yesterday morning. Of course I was trying to get out the door and off to class. But I had to stop and drop my backpack and run for the potty. I did not puke thankfully. I suffered off and on all day yesterday. And I woke up sick again this morning. I made some breakfast and feel better now. But I feel mostly better while sitting and resting. I fear when I get out of this chair it will all disappear and I will be pukey feeling again. BUT it is well worth it if it means the baby is healthy and happy tucked away in there.

Just a week and a half until my first ultrasound! Fingers crossed and prayers raised high that everything will go well that day. Until then I am going to enjoy my lovely vacation with Ethan and our friends. It should be oodles of fun!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

Slowely creeping in

Pregnancy symptoms are slowly creeping in more and more. Every day I feel more sick and tired and my boobs get bigger and more sore. It is crazy. I spent all day today on the verge of falling asleep. I actually dozed off in the car on Saturday while we were driving around. I am just pooped out all the time this weekend. I didn't get out of bed until 11am on Sunday. Laid back down for an hour nap until 7pm. I was ready for bed again by 9pm. I would be sleeping right now if I had remembered to wash Ethan's uniforms. UGH! That boy has got to start washing his own uniforms. I am to tired for it these days. Saturday night ... or should I say Sunday morning I was up from 3-4am because of morning sickness. Ya that was some seriously early morning sickness. And not at all fun to wake up to. BUT I am not complaining. We worked hard to get here. It is all worth it as long as we come out 35 weeks from now with a healthy baby. That is all that matters. OK I am going to go snooze on the couch until the washing machine is done so I can put his uniforms in the dryer.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009


It is late. I am exhausted. I have to be up in 5 hours to get Bryan off to school. I have class in the morning. But the "morning" sickness is keeping me up. I use the term morning very loosely. The last 2 days I have been feeling queasy. But not in the morning. Nope! My "morning" sickness appears to be running wild in the afternoon and evening and even late night. I prefer the name progesterone poisoning to morning sickness. Morning sickness just sounds like a horrid lie. I think I might go lay down on the couch for a while. My tossing and turning won't disturb Ethan. It is a quick sprint to the toilet if need be. And maybe if I am lucky I will doze off there for at least a little bit.

Last of the bunch

These are the last tests in the bunch. OK I am kinda lying. I do have one test left. It is a digital test. All those do is say PREGNANT or NOT PREGNANT. So they are more exciting in some ways and less exciting in others. I don't know what I am going to do with that one. I am sure at some point I will decide to pee on it. LOL

This first test is an internet cheapie test. I got them off from eBay ... well I don't know how long ago. Some time when I bought a bunch of OPKs from there I am sure. Anyway these tests are annoying because they take so much HCG for them to give you a decent looking positive test. It makes me want to scream. No wonder they are cheap. They are crap! You are dang near squatting the kid out by the time you get a BFP with one of these! But they come free with the similar and far better working OPK tests. So I had a few laying around.

The next one is just your average run of the mill + or - test. The blue dyes always work less effectively for me. I don't know if it is me or if every one has problems. But the pink colored tests have been working much better for me this time around. That is why I held out on taking this test. I wanted to see a nice strong dark + sign. Well I got my wish.

Well that is it. No more tests left. Unless I go out and buy more which I am pretty sure would drive Ethan over the crazy cliff. LOL I think I have met my pee stick quota for ... well for a life time. he he he Now I just get to sit and agonize over how the ultrasound will turn out. Good thing they don't sell those in Wal-mart. We would be broke in no time ...

Monday, October 19, 2009

No need

I know there is no need for this. But I have tests left. So I shall pee on them!
But when you have waited for so many years and tried so hard it is hard not to fall in love with that sight. OK I will go back to my homework now. he he he

Friday, October 16, 2009

Fantastic Shopping Trip!

I had today off. No school and no work. I dropped Bryan off with his aunt for the weekend. I had the entire day all to myself! So I went to the mall. I found tons of baby clothes on sale. I received an email while I was out shopping. It said that today the baby is the size of a poppy seed. Hmmm ... I think these clothes might still be to big. LOL I am looking at clothes for a baby who is as tiny as a POPPY SEED! That is a crazy thought. And why if the baby is only that big do my jeans already feel tight? Add bloating to my pregnancy symptoms. Small price to pay!

I headed to Motherhood Maternity to see if there was a snow balls chance in hell that they might have pregnancy sleep bras or nursing bras for a plus sized girl like myself. Much to my surprise since the last time I was pregnant they have expanded to actually have a plus sized section! It's not very big. Just a few racks. But it was an improvement over the last time I was in there. And there on the wall was exactly what I had been looking for. Ginormous nursing and sleep bras made just for ginormous boobies like mine. WOOHOO! I don't need them yet. But it was nice to know that they actually do exist in town and not just on the internet.

The lady who was working in the store asked me how I was doing. With out thinking about it first I said "tired". My mind instantly went CRAP! Why would this lady even care that I am tired? Who did I think I was talking to? She smiled and said "Well of course you are tired! Your body is very busy right now!" Boy is she lucky that I am actually pregnant. HA HA HA I couldn't help but smile. It made me feel all warm and fuzzy. When you are not pregnant and you say you are tired everybody says things like "Oh you think YOU'RE tired??? Let me tell you something!" or "You don't know the meaning of the word tired until you ..." It can be kind of annoying sometimes. But for once I got away with just being tired. I had a good excuse and somebody acknowledged it. *sigh* That was fabulous!

And of course for fun I have a HPT pic for the day. You would think after 4 at home pee tests and 1 blood test I would be satisfied. And I am. But I have a bunch of tests left over. So it can't hurt to take one every few days and enjoy watching the plus signs get darker! And here is today's BFP (Big Fat Positive) for your viewing pleasure! OK for my viewing pleasure and daddy Ethan's cause nobody else knows about this blog yet. But someday I will let the rest of you in on the secret!


Beta Test Results

Thursday morning I went to the clinic to have blood drawn. My RE requires a positive blood pregnancy test before they will allow us to schedule the first ultrasound. So I headed off to the vampires and made my donation of blood. Infertility has really made me sick of getting poked by needles. But I know it will not get an better during pregnancy. Oh well! Small price to pay!

I called the nurse later that afternoon for the results. She said a positive test was anything above a 5. When they typically do these tests on woman 50 is a very good number to have. Well my HCG levels were at 74.5 on Thursday!!! The nurse said considering the fact that I had not even actually missed my period yet that was a fantastic number! Maybe all those jokes about Clomid twins weren't so far off. Be careful what you wish for. LOL

I scheduled my ultrasound for Monday, November 9, 2009. That is right after we get back from vacation. I would have done it on the 6th but we would still be in Arizona that day. So that would not have worked. I look forward to getting a chance to check in on our baby. Hopefully everything will be healthy and we will get to see a heartbeat. Hopefully there won't be a whole litter of babies in there. Octomom I am not nor do I care to be! One healthy baby ... maybe even two if we are REALLY lucky is all I am asking for.

Fingers crossed and prayers raised high that this is just the beginning of the good news and a healthy pregnancy.


Ladies and gentleman we have an announcement! I am pregnant! Ethan and I are having a baby!


WHEW! That felt good to get off my chest. Now shhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! You can't tell anyone. At least not yet anyway. I am only 4 weeks pregnant and it is far to early to share this news. That is part of the reason I started this blog. I have a blog.
I have talked all about being a mom and a wife and living on a farm and our struggles with miscarriage and infertility. Eventually I will also post these posts on that blog. But for now in an effort to keep our little secret quite until the second trimester I created a new blog here. It just for me and the baby!


Once we reach the 12 week mark. And God willing we will get there this time. We will tell ALL of our friends and family. I will be in my second trimester by Christmas time. So we are hoping to tell our parents for Christmas ... again ... only this time I will be MUCH farther along. So we should be in the clear by then.

Part of the reason I created this blog is to give friends and family a place to go to keep up to date on us. See how we are doing. Read any good news we have to share. And to know what is going on when ever they have time and the desire to check in on us. I will post pictures of what ever I can as often as I can.


Because it is fun.


And I really enjoy doing it.


So be prepared!

Our baby is due on June 25th and I am currently 4 weeks along. So I still have a long way to go. Fingers crossed that it will all go smoothly and we will both come out healthy and happy 36 weeks from now!

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